[Album Patah Hati] - How are you doing?

2019/01/31

Hope you are all safe and always happy (the second one is a utopia. We have to accept that life is up and down 😁). 

How are you doing? Hope you doing well and know your passion. When I said that I envy you. I was not overstating. You do have some talents that I see can help you achieve your success. When I said to someone about your “talent”, I’ve been told that it's a bias, that it's just because like you and everything on you looks greater. Hahaha. I believed that. 

But it’s not. You really do have those talents but you don’t really optimize (that’s what I see). I think you need partners to optimize it. Hihihi.

Have you chosen someone? I know you have some choices ;). Hope you’ll choose soon. She must be strong enough, kind, and mindful to be able to accompany and support you to achieve your success, which is also her success :). 

I was too strict and obsessed to you when we were close. Then I realized it was wrong and made you uncomfortable with me. Then I tried to step back (and I think you did so). I think I did. I am in the distance from you. That’s all I can control. Beyond that, there’s something I cannot control. The feeling. There are many reasons to like/dislike someone, but I believe that heart is under the control of Al-Khaliq. I was thinking why I do have this. I know I’m not your cup of tea, I know that we’re just friends.

I keep asking Allah. Is it a test from Allah? In this age? Really? Sounds shameful. But it’s happened. 

Well, these past two years I’ve learned looooooooots of things. I started to learn cooking, started to educate myself for a better look, learned to soften my attitude (I realized that I was super rude to my friends who ware suffering this stupid feeling). Have ever heard Hadith narated by Imam Bukhari 

لا حكيم الا ذو تجربة

No one is wise except the one who has experience

I think I understand now 😂. 

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2020/01/07

Maybe indeed it was the training for me before I met the right man for me and got married 😍

الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ الَّذِى بِنِعْمَتِهِ تَتِمُّ الصَّالِحَاتُ